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My Story

Jema Killala-Barnard
Jema Killala-Barnard

I have always lived in the liminal spaces. Between endings and beginnings, love and loss, mothering and becoming.
At eighteen, I lost my mother to brain cancer. That loss cracked me open before my adult life had even begun. Only a few years later, I became a mother, young, alone, and disowned by my family. Motherhood was both devastation and salvation, initiation and rebirth.​

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Since then, life has asked me again and again to hold grief and joy in the same breath..

  • Saying goodbye to my father as dementia slowly took him from me.

  • Being cast out of the church that raised me because I chose love on my own terms.

  • Losing a daughter midway through pregnancy.

  • And birthing four sons who now anchor me here, in the wild, holy ordinary of life.

Each threshold has stripped me bare and remade me.
Each loss has become my teacher in how to begin again, slower, truer, and more rooted in what matters.
It was in those cracks that astrology found me, not as a system of prediction, but as a language of belonging. The stars became my map home to myself, showing me how every ending can be compost for new creation, and every desire a seed waiting for the right season to grow.
Now, as a mother of four, an astrologer, and a guide, I hold space for women standing at their own thresholds, the mothers asking, Who am I now? Where do I go from here?
My work is not about chasing the next version of yourself. It’s about remembering the ember that’s always been there, your sacred desire, and learning to tend it with care.
This is manifestation with deep roots.
Desire as devotion.
Becoming as a natural, seasonal rhythm.
If you’re ready to walk through change with self compassion and curiosity, to reclaim the magic woven into your everyday life, you are in the right place.

Work With Me

Flame Tending

​A different kind of reading, a sacred thread of presence when you’re in transition. You’ll receive a deep chart reading and gentle voice notes on Telegram over the course of four days. It’s a pocket of clarity, warmth, and witness.

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The Cauldron

For those ready to go deeper. A 3-6 Month soul mentoring container for the deep work of transformation. This is not about fixing or rushing. It’s about listening, attuning, and trusting the slow alchemy of your becoming.

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The Dreamer Meditation

​Join my mailing list and get my guided meditation, an invitation to rise beyond the noise of daily life and enter your Soul Star Temple, a space where you can rest, breathe, and remember who you came here to be.

THE DREAMER FREE ACTIVATION

My YouTube Channel

Where I share stories of motherhood, seasonal living, astrology, and creating space for your soul in the chaos of everyday life.

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Read The Mother Story

A little story page that I created

THE MOTHER

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